Some random thoughts have come to my mind this morning. I think it’s important to write it down.
I went to bed very late last night mostly due to my bad behavior of unwillingness to go to sleep. It’s hard for me to wake up these days because of this behavior. So I tried to move my thumb toes first. Meanwhile, I tried to talk to myself. “Breath” and I started breathing. “Attention is limited, don’t waste that on your phone. Start moving little by little, then wake up the rest of the body.” After a minute of this exercise, I rolled to the side and stood up.
Why can’t I control my body? After all, it’s mine. I started imaging. My body is like the hardware of a computer. It has all the parts for different functions and purposes. My brain is the processor, memory, and hard drive(or SSD😉). It’s funny that our brain almost has everything that emulates a computer. Other parts of the body provide fuel by eating food and help me interact with the external world.
Here’s what is interesting. My consciousness is not the operating system. Maybe the subconscious is and it controls all the background processes. So, who am I? More precisely, who is controlling my body? I’m curious, but that’s not the most important thing right now.
For now, I just need to know that I am the owner of this “body machine”. I should have full control of it. Maybe I need to learn more about my body to do that, just like how I command my computer. If I don’t know how to use the operating system, I won’t be able to use it properly.
There must be a way to control every part of my body and deal with my emotion. I must also keep my body healthy, so I can do more with it. I don’t want to have to control every single part of my body. For example, breathing and heartbeats. It’s better to let them run without me thinking of them. But I want to get to a point that I can take control when it’s necessary.
That’s it for today.